Dear Diary…


As of today, two years, 2 months and 11 days…

There was a time when feelings floated along the surface, fading as quickly as the rain clouds vanished after a storm. Never lasting more than a few moments in time. Emotions were never so deeply embedded. Seconds were never given their due importance and time just swept along, mindlessly spent as the days drew to a close.

Over the years all that has changed as drastically as the seasons come and go. Memories are now so preciously stored, and life which once so precariously balanced on the edge is savoured and cherished.
Distance has taught the hardest lesson of all. Fondness for those who are absent has increased so out of proportion that words are often insufficient to explain the explosion of feelings experienced.
The value of people and the difference they make in your life, the way a person touches you from the inside making them so impossibly hard to let go of, and the very fragility of life are all emotions so anew and foreign.

But perhaps the hardest lesson of all is that of attachment. Of how an attachment can break you down, confuse you beyond belief and suck the very life out of you when mishandled. How the obsessive thoughts of one person or people can render you incompetent. How your heart can become plagued by them, causing a deep-rooted dissatisfaction.
Above all, how dangerous an attachment can be. How hard it becomes to rid yourself of it and begin life all over.. For nothing can cause pain, like that of giving up a part of yourself you wanted to keep as yours alone forever.. but can undoubtedly never have.

nadia nawaz

5 thoughts on “Dear Diary…

  1. The flow and expression is beautiful. But sigh..

    I don’t know what it is and what it turns out to be. Where we go wrong what it could’ve been. It leaves the heart and the mind so tired. Maybe we’ll be way too old when we learn what the real thing is, that is, if we’re lucky

    and tell you till now it doesn’t feel like it..

    • The same thoughts were going through my head when I wrote this..
      Life can be so trying
      Hope you’re doing well though
      Your comments are a breath of fresh air!
      Thank you! =)

  2. You know as I read through your writings , my heart gets heavier ! I can feel the pain you feel…..As I have experienced the same things , I guess as you have….
    But yo know only a few people know the art of expressing feelings….And you are overloaded with this art ! You are wonderful…Every pain gives you a gift…..You know how to use it 🙂
    Many many best wishes for your future life….. I love you ! 🙂

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