Musings of a sleep deprived, preoccupied student looking for an outlet!


Exhausted is a word which barely begins to describe my state right now. To say I’m physically, emotionally and mentally spent would be an understatement. Yet here I am, busy hammering away at my keyboard despite having a back load of reading to catch up on, exam revisions to undertake, pages upon pages of learning to do and a million other things on my mind, which if I were to begin to explain, would literally take me the rest of the year maybe more.

As students we are given deadlines to work towards, assignments to complete, projects to undergo, presentations to give and of course the exams, which simply passing is never enough for me; I have to get that top mark or distinction. This need to excel and perform better than the rest is probably a genetic malfunction I would happily blame on my parents any day. But don’t take me wrong, I’m not complaining. In fact this growing sense of ambition which seems to get stronger day by day is one of the biggest blessings I have been given for which I am truly grateful.

Something which is completely beyond me however is my unwillingness and desire to revise. Throughout my education I have come to notice that whenever exam time approaches, each and every single student will do their hardest to make excuses for not sitting down to study. Be it catching up with old friends, replying to emails, sorting out your wardrobe, even doing house chores will seem more enticing than opening those bland text books or lecture notes and making yourself concentrate on them. Focusing at this time seems beyond us all. Facebook seems to be visited more frequently, mobile phones are checked every other minute for no reason other than to while away the hours and don’t forget the food; gouging on fast food, downing lattés like water and generally feasting on every single thing we can lay eyes on becomes something of a compulsion for students of all ages.


It’s strange really. When being forced to do something, in this instance revising for an exam, we begin to resist and look for any outlet which will allow us to spend as little time in doing the very thing which ultimately needs to be done at every cost. However, be it any other day that very same activity will seem to capture our interest and cause time to pass us by without us caring. For example the subject we took a lecture on, will seem exceptionally interesting on any other day other than exam times ,so much so that we might spend an extra hour just reading through extra material for basic general knowledge. 252272_385510414830202_528117318_n

Being unable to grasp the strangeness of these occurrences, I will simply bring it down to the nature of human beings to resist any form of forceful constraints which we are bound by and must uphold. Either that, or a general unwillingness and fear of facing the consequences and results of our actions which are a part of every one of us. This trait is displayed particularly during the result announcement day.

As for me, for now I must tackle that back log once and for all!

nadia nawaz

Oh Those Dreadful Rejections!

I’m sure every single one of us has faced a rejection in some form or other, be it between choosing a college or university of our choice, a job application or even proposing to your dream partner out there. Rejection in any shape, way or form is painful and it SUCKS!

So I was lounging around the other day, mourning yet another one of those summer job application turn downs when I heard the lyrics of “Down” by Jay Sean playing in a car parked outside my bed room window. The line that struck me most, was

“…indefinitely, not probably, and honestly I’m down like the economy!..”

I'm sure this is exactly how i will be by the time graduation comes along!

I’m sure this is exactly how i will be by the time graduation comes along!

Isn’t it ironic how those lyrics fit perfectly with our current status?

In general, the world as a whole is facing a continuous decline in the economy which has led to the youth feeling somewhat depressed and dejected. Jobs are now as scares as water is in the desert, and WHEN and IF you do happen to stumble upon a good company who’s recruiting new employees, the post is filled before you even get the chance of tailoring your C.V and filling in the complete application form.

The most comical part of the whole scenario is the very way in which these companies reject you. Generally they have a tendency to start off by apologizing, expressing their commiseration over how THEY “decided” to turn down your application because It supposedly didn’t fit in with their current  needs as yet. Personally I think they owe us a more personalised and heartfelt apology letter  at least for the very fact that they took up two hours of your life,not only making you give up  all your personal details including your complete history up to date, but also writing a hundred words ( if not more) each about why you chose the particular company, your hobbies, drives and motivation etc..-Point to be noted,all of your data is supposedly kept safe,it is a part of the “Data Protection Act” and is only kept in the company’s data base as long as needed-Oh and how can I forget the dreadful surveys!

And then if that’s not bad enough, they have the audacity to tell us to keep trying elsewhere and that they will “consider us” again( this almost usually never happens)  as soon as a new post opens up while kindly informing us that we are not to make another application for the next 6 months! For all the nerve! Sometimes I wish I had taken a law degree instead, it would be so satisfying to sue a company for being biased, though I obviously know that is not the case-by hey I can dream!

Sometimes I wonder if a point will come in the future when we will all have to resort to the “Barter system” of trade like our ancestors did. With such scarcity of jobs, money will soon become a thing of the past. Maybe it will be entertaining to go to market places and trade your old stuff for newer more modern things. At least it will sort out the problem of filling in those pesky job applications only to be rejected so sweetly yet again!

Here’s an article outlining all the statistics of employment over the years in the United Kingdom, quite discouraging to be honest but the best I can hope for is that the figures of employed graduates will slowly rise by the time my turn comes alone! Take a look :


Coffee Anyone?

Did someone just say coffee? Mmmm yum yum! The mere mention of the word is enough to make my taste buds start tingling. It’s as though my brain cells can sense its presence and start dancing this crazy joyous jig, together with that intoxicating divine smell of freshly filtered coffee, makes me feel almost HEAVENLY! There’s something rather magical about that freshly brewed brown/black liquid, that delicious  concoction that brings a caffeinated joy that only coffee can give.

Coffee is that sole beverage which is considered somewhat of a comfort food or should I say drink and is popular among the masses, irrespective of age, gender, religion or culture. It is consumed daily on a humongous scale throughout the globe especially in the USA.  Some would argue that coke and tea are just as well-known and widely favoured, but I beg to differ-Tea is barely popular among kids and coke is forbidden for those suffering from diabetes– In addition I must also point out that coffee is now added to cakes, muffins, toffee, ice-cream and even chocolate. Taken cold, hot or however your heart desires. In comparison, ever heard of tea flavoured cake? Or even tea flavoured ice-cream? I doubt it.

Personally I absolutely refuse to call myself a coffee addict, (my mother would say otherwise) though one mug per day is mandatory for my little body to function at its best. Be it freshly ground filter coffee, Brazil’s best instant ground beans in a jar or a little sachet of some unknown brand packed up with powdered milk and sweetener, I’ll hungrily gulp it all down.

Let’s rewind a few years .I was 17, sick of tea and in dire need of something to keep me perked up and focused during the long endless nights of college exam prep. Coffee presented itself to me in the form of a beautiful steaming hot mug full of deliciousness. That’s when my love for it really began. Almost three years down the line, we’re as inseparable as a newly wedded couple.

My very own special coffee mug-A present from my mum.I love it to bits! :)

My very own special coffee mug-A present from my mum.I love it to bits! 🙂

Back then, my mother had this inconceivable notion that if I were to continue having coffee I would not only develop stomach ulcers but would also tragically die of intestinal rupture. No exaggerations there (I think I have succeeded in reassuring her now).She even used to go as far as hiding the jar of coffee or else putting it on a shelf beyond my reach, some place she thought I’d be innocent enough to overlook. But not me, no. I was never that easily fooled. I would ransack the kitchen whenever she was out, hunt down that coffee jar and make myself comfortable while I sat watching the kettle boil. Then I’d sit back and enjoy my steaming cup of heaven, wash up my cup after I was done and creep out of the kitchen like a criminal. Turns out I’m not very good at hiding things, she used to come back and somehow know what I had done. Maybe it was just that guilty look on my face that made her suspicious!

I found this rather amusing!

I found this rather amusing!

However, despite my adoration for coffee I barely ever exceed one mug per day (excluding exam time of course, but extra is justified during that stressful period). My mother’s continuous warnings have finally hit their mark and I dare not surpass my limit for fear of those dreaded ulcers and burnt out intestines.

According to a recent study, on average 300mg of caffeine is safe for adult consumption on a daily basis. However this is also duly dependent upon the person’s weight and age as well as their general reaction towards caffeine.

I came across a number of articles while trying to prove to my mum that a mug full a day was perfectly safe (she’s a tea drinker, through and through). Clink on the links below if you’re interested. You might just find them useful.

How much coffee is safe?

What is a safe amount of caffeine

Caffeine Content of Food & Drugs

Till then, for all those coffee lovers out there, consider us soul-mates!